As I write this, I am looking back. Things seem kinda surreal. Like, is this really happening? Yes, it is happening and I am in control, says the Lord. AND, HE SURELY IS... EVERY STEP OF THE WAY.
Angie, Meagan, Norm and I arrived at the surgeon's office. On the door to the patients' rooms, it said only one person allowed to go back with the patients. Oh Boy! That was not going to work. When I turned in my paperwork, I asked the girl if my family could go back with me when I spoke to the doctor and she said yes. WHEW!! Thank you , Lord.
We spent about 30-45 minutes with Dr. LaFond. He was very thorough with us, explaining and drawing pictures for us of the cancer, where it was and what my options were going to be. He was encouraging as he, too, said, we have some time before we do surgery. I don't want to wait months, but we have some weeks to gather some information. We discussed at length the pros and cons of each of my choices- lumpectomy with radiation, one breast removal or double mastectomy. We also discussed reconstructive surgery and treatment following each of the choices. I had prepared a list of questions with the girls' help. I made sure that we had answered all of the questions. We also discussed my family history. WOW!! This could really impact my girls and their families, depending on what the BRCA test showed. Dr. LaFond assure us that most patients come back with negative results on that test. He was patient with us and he walked us through each part until the family was satisfied we had all the informatin we needed right then. As we were preparing to leave, he patted me on the leg and said.. you have alot of things to think about. Boy, did I know it and my head was swimming!! My next step was to have the BRCA test done as soon as they could schedule it and to schedule me an appointment with a plastic surgeon..
Angie had to go finish a job she was doing so Meg, Norm and I headed to Cracker Barrel for supper and to discuss further what we had discussed with Dr. Lafond. It is so good to have more than just you in the meeting with doctors at a time like this. All hear different things from what the doctor says to you.
IT IS AMAZING THAT EACH DAY GOD HAS GIVEN ME PEACE. There have been roller coaster days when one minute you hear something good and the next day you hear something not so good. But, soon after the Lord takes control and the Peace returns
Philippians 4:7 says And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
That is the KEY.... only He can give you that peace. I know my cancer is not at the stages many ladies face nor is it aggressive as far as we know. There were definitely positive aspects to consider: it is an early stage, localized, treatable...... however it is still the C word and scary. So, with that being said, I am so thankful God has given me HIS PEACE.
The day of this meeting I received two sets of scriptures from friends:
Isaish 30:21---whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it"! Praise to You, Father for your wisdom, guidance and direction.
And, one of my favorite: Psalm 91
Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust.
surely He will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find reguge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.
You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.
If you say, The Lord is my refuge, and you make the Most High your dwelling, no harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent.
For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will life you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread on the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
Because he loves me, says the Lord, I will resuce him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble. I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.
WOW WHAT MORE COULD WE NEED THAN THAT??
PRAISE THE LORD!!!!
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